Weekend trips, vacations, romantic dinners, Numerous kisses, and several dances filed the first two years.
You said you loved me!
I remember the first time you said those 3 words. It was early in the our relationship and I didn't feel the same. You felt like I was trying to play you because I did not feel the same way.
You said you loved me!
Then the day came, I said "I love you too" and then we said "I do" . We agreed to be together forever or until death due us part.
You said you loved me!
Then you tried to hurt me. You tried to kill me but you said you didn't. How did you not when you held the pillow to my face with all your weight and you only let up because I scratched you until you bled.
You said you loved me!
You had me confused, furious, lost, and bruised because of the stuff you did.
You said you loved me!
I took your last name and I wish I didn't. When I said "I do" you took it as I would do nothing as you tore me to pieces.
You said you loved me!
Though you left me alone, as a wife, many nights waiting for you to return but you chose to spend time with her, and her, and her.
You said you loved me!
I know you never asked me to stay. I know I stayed because I meant what I said when I uttered teh words "I love you". I know you did know want what you convinced me to give you- my love, my time, my heat, my trust, and my body.
But, you said you loved me!
I had to come to the understanding that you were using me for your own gratitude and yielding those words as a weapon to get me to stay and work it out.
You said you loved me!
I told you that it wasn't working but you told me that you could not live without me. You ignored the part where I said that I could not live with you.
You said you loved me...
I love you!
You said you loved me.
But, you said you loved me!
That doesn't matter anymore. I need to love me again because your love hurts too much for me to continue to want it, desire it, or want it in my life. If this is love then I want no parts!
Some will use the words or sentiments that hold profound meaning against another person. Each situation is different but many use these words or phrases as a way o control or manipulate the person. Most do not look for the inconsistencies or ill will in another person and can be led on by a skillful con. It is not the fault of the abused that someone prayed om their kindness. Yet it becomes the responsibility of the abused to overcome the trauma that they have lived through. This does NOT mean that the abused agreed with the abuse, it means that the abused no longer will allow that person and or that experience hinder or retraumatize them going forward.